Work For It

suka atau tak.dia bukan milik saya.saya bukan pemiliknya.tapi saya takkan give up.never say never.saya tau itu saya dulu.but i`m changing and its all because of you.semua pasal awak.kerana awak. ;) tanpa awak saya tak mungkin sekuat ini.sekarang saya dah ketawa ketawa dan ketawa.memikirkan tentang awak dah boleh buat saya happy.i feel so thankful.please dont take him away from me.


saya janji akan sabar.saya janji akan paham awak.saya janji takkan paksa awak.dan saya janji akan jujur.awak tau? makin hari makin tumbuh perasaan sayang pada awak.perasaan hormat,suka,kasih.saya sayang awak kawan.saya rasa awak paling paham saya.paling paham,even kadang kadang penat nak melayan saya ni kan? ;P tidur saya selalu bermimpikan awak. everyday.
you are always on my mind. saya rindu awak kot. 


paling saya nak awak paham.tak pernah diri ini nak paksa awak suka saya. saya paham yang cinta tak boleh dipaksa. dan cinta juga bukanlah memiliki. melihat awak bahagia, selalu happy, senyuman awak memberi nyawa untuk jiwa saya.
semoga awak selalu bahagia. sweet dream ;)

Waiting For You

Promise i`ll never leave
the love will emerge just for you
i will prove it to you
that i`ll be the sunshine for your heart
so that when you find darkness your heart will glow

Tears

Today after a long time i cried. my tears dropping.today i feel like i`m alone in this world. and nobody here with me. but i tried to be strong and i felt like it is my fault that nobody here with me. but i dont even bother to tell them what i feel. they are happy now and they also dont want to tell and share the happiness that they get. maybe i dont deserve to know maybe i dont deserve the world HAPPY. and i just suit with the word ALONE. so that i wont hurt anybody and i wont be the one who they will blamed. and you, when we were friends i really felt comfortable talking to you. but know, after that i have that kind of feeling i feel like i`m depending on you. and i dont like it. even that i love you i care about you please know that i will never force someone to like me or love me back. today, someone that change my world come back in my mind.. i dont know why am i thinking about him. 

Senyap

perasan kah kamu semua.saya tak banyak post sudah dalam blog ini.saya rindu sebenarnya nak berblog.tapi macam tak da kesah nak cerita.hahaha. ape daaa. hmm.saya rindu kat seorang hamba allah ni.tapi setiap kali nak cakap,text atau im mesti keras je jari nak tulis perkataan "rindu". kenapa yek? haihh haihh.honntoni bakaa janae!(ntah betul ke tak perkataan ni..aku main bedal je)
saya sayang awak.dari hari first saya rasa sampai sekarang.saya suka awak.kenapa awak haa? adeh.payah nak jawab.

Slow Down

Give more time

give one more minute

let we go slow

can we go slow

let the loved that we feel

coming from our heart

true,just for you

hold your feelings

let it flow

let it flow slowly

so you can feel it

let it slow down 

Assumption is bad

yes.it is bad.it can ruin your life your day your mood.it can ruin the way you think the way you act.it can influence your attitude and put negative thinking in your mind. i know i should not have made an assumption bout it. Somebody is not guilty and now i felt guilty. why am i thinking?? why did i do that.its a stupid action! i`m deeply angry with my self now. now that i started this..whatever i do feels wrong! i`m sorry.i am really sorry. ;( and now also i`m making an assumption. haihhh!!!!!!!!!!

3 Of Us

Even we have miscommunication in our friendship or misunderstanding but we always know that we love each other. even she click here far away from me and always busy i know i can always count on her. when we are young i always make mistake but all that i want to do is to protect and love her.even i do that, she always forgive me and accept me back and she never keep it in heart.and i will always have her in my heart and mind.people always said that "whenever quye is, there will be melor" 


We always have each other back,whenever i sad she will always hear me. and talk to me about it. she always said "quye ni macam mak nenek ar" hahaha. she is the brilliant student among 3 of us. she always help me and so do i. i love her just like my sister. she is the strongest person i`ve known. click here

i miss the time that we spend together at school.the time we have volleyball practice, hockey. the time we go swimming together. after school finish before we go back home we will have lunch at kedai bawah. we will have fun lepak with other friends then dinar will drive her scooter back home and i will accompany melor sometime i walk her home then i`ll walk back home. road to her home is dangerous so i always accompany her. sometimes i stay back at her`s to do homework or just lepak at her home. do all those crazy things, karaoke,capture pic of us.sometimes dinar will send me home with her scoot and sometimes she let me drove the scoot.i really miss you guys.i miss them so much. and they are my true friends because they accept me for the way i are. and they never hate me. when i make mistake they forgive me. even if we argue about something we will not hanging on the same problem too long. we will solve and forget it. they will always have space in my heart and they will always be in my mind. 

Silent

silent mode

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F***in Perfect

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong 
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead 
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it! 
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game 
It's enough! I've done all I can think of 
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same 

p/s:this is for you girl.

Berat

I lost my weight from 64 to 55.

how can this happen? maybe

i think too much.yeahhh.

thats the answer.wanna know?

i miss my friend.i dont know 

whether they think of me or not.

sometimes i feel like i`m alone

in this planet and i feel so sad

because theres nobody here with me.

Time

Masa yang ada, tak banyak untuk spent kan bersama kawan kawan yang tersayang,keluarga..

kita rasa kita punya segalanya,kadang kadang kita pernah tak bersyukur,pernah kah terdetik dihati segalanya akan hilang dan lenyap. sesungguhnya allah mengetahui apa yang tidak kita ketahui..

we have everything,still we want more when we got it, we never appreciate. semua hanya pinjaman setelah tamat dunia,setelah allah cabut nyawa semuanya kembali pada asal..

gunakan masa yang ada untuk hargai setiap detik dalam hidup kita.nikmati sementara masih ada.berbuat baik,xsalah kan? kalau kita buat baik,orang lain pasti balas kebaikan kita..mungkin kadang2 ada orang tak hargai..mungkin dugaan bagi kita kan?

aritu ekin ada baca buku ni...bila dalam kesusahan atau berdepan dengan kesukaran allah kata ucaplah "LAHAULAWALAKUWATAILLAHBILLAH" bukannya megeluarkan kata kata kesat.bila ingat balik..haihss..macam2 dah keluar dari mulut ni.-___-

kawan,kita berhak berkawan dengan siapa saja.tak kira lah dia artis ke,menteri ke anak datuk ke..yang penting niat kita. kalau orang tak nak berkawan, xpe maybe dia xselesa dengan cara kita..bukan semua orang boleh terima.

3 Days

Planning.


first day,sleep until 12 o`clock.wake up.take a bath.cook then sleep without eating.6.00 pm wake up for prayer then sleep again.


second day..same routine.


third day?..same routine.


you wanna know why?because my brain aint gonna stop thinking.thats why i have to sleep and i dont wanna eat.because i cant eat when i`m thinking. okay.now i wanna sleep because i wanna start thinking and talk nonsense. goodbye and goodnight.

p/s:i know but i dont know.

and i dont like it.

also hate it.

Leen`s Birthday

Okay..sebenarnya saya tak pernah pun buat kad untuk Dia nih

haa.lupa pulak nak kasitahu.Dia nih.kakak saya.hahaha.

satu satunya kakak yang saya ada.

dia lah musuh dia lah kawan.

pemalas,garang,gila,friendly,kadang-kadang bila dia buat baik

saya pikir dua kali gak.hahahaha.okay.

kami dari kecik kongsi satu bilik.

so saya paham gila perangai dia.

eventhough saya paham.tapi still saya suka buat dia marah

sebab.saya nak usik lah! kalau dah saya buat baik je

tak leh lah dengar dia memekak kan.

saya pulak bosan nanti.

hahaha.dia kadang kadang agak blur.

buli dia adalah perkara palng happy saya pernah buat.

sebab? susah nak buli.hahaha.asyek dia je buli saya.

mane aci kan? tapi kan dia satu satunya kakak yang saya ada

tak nak mengaku nih(mestilah sayang kakak an)

eheem!! dah dah.itu je nak bagitau.

haaaa.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTAAA.

dah 23 TAHUN.boleh kahwin dah.

hahaha.

;P

love you sis!

ni tuan punya badan.

masih single yawww~

Bound to you

Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I've opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us

You're all I need when I'm holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to you

So much, so young
I've faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I'm strong and I'm sure there's a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure

I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I brace myself, please don't tear this apart

I found a man I can trust

And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can't you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to

Suddenly the moment's here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all
Come this far just to fall, fall

Oh, I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
And finally found my way
I am bound to you

I am,
Ooh, I am
I'm bound to you

Egois

Ego ku sangat kecil.

dimana bila aku marah, cepat suam.

 and i hate that!!!

 aku tak kuat.diluar je kuat.dalaman sangat rapuh.

 kerana kebenaran tu sangat kuat dan aku tak mampu menipu.

Books

okay korang tau tak saya berkerja di Border`s? ianya sebuah kedai buku ye. haa.itulah belajar culinary tapi kerja part time kat border`s(kene tepek dgn chef dollah) hahaha.whatever.tak semestinya belajar satu bende nak praktik tu je kan? ;) soo.disebabkan dah asyik dengan buku.saya jadi rajin pulak baca buku. best kot! ouh.minat saya memang baca buku.tapi bila dah duduk kat tempat yang dipenuhi ribuan buku..perghh...excited gilakk! so saya banyak baca buku.setakat nih dah dekat 16 buah buku dan semuanya novel melayu.wakakak. xdelah.ade 2 novel english.its quite fascinating! english novel terbaeekkk! lagi2 nicholas sparks. yeaah..and and julia gilbert yang tulis buku pasal eat pray love.
itulah cerita pasal buku.yaww~~now i smell something..mama masak! yum! yum! soo..got to gooo...

BamBam and Cemomot

okay.saya tau.post kali sangat beda dari yang lain.kenapa?sebab saya rindu diorang ni. firstly, si cemomot.dia and busy sangat sangat and if i`m not mistaken dia ada test starting 8 mac. tapi dia still balas mesej saya.how sweet! love you cemomot thanks for your advise ;)


second, si bambam gebuu! hahaha. kan best kalau trip pegi penang tuu jadi kan kan? yang pentingnya bukan nak p penang tuu pon.cheq nak jumpa hang sebenaqnya..sebab bambam dah pernah nampak kinkin so tak aci lah. ;P  


saya rindu cemomot.gelak dia.seronok masa lepak and karaoke tuu.rindu sangat.;( apa apa pun.please take care both of you.

p/s: psst!psst! bambam,

 i have something for you!

Lelaki Ini

Buat saya cintaaa dia sangat.

Buat saya tak boleh tido malam malam.

Buat kepala saya pening bila dia tak balas mesej.

Buat saya risau bila dia sakit.

Buat saya senyum bila dia senyum.

Bagi saya semangat bila dia ada dengan saya.

Saya sayang dia.

awak, saya sayang awak.

saya tahu awak tahu perasaan saya.

tapi saya tak tahu hati awak.

saya sayang awak,sampai nak explode hati saya ni penuh kasih dan sayang untuk awak.

Hunny 21

 Thanks to yana cemmomot

saya baca post dia.

baru saya teringat saya lupa wish

birthday si manis ini.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HUNNY BUNNY.

ni saya buat untuk awak.

kalau jumpa awak,saya kasi hug besar besar punya k?

hehehe.sorry sangat2 lupa birthday awak.

apa apa pun saya wish

untuk birthday awak yang ke 21

awak harungi hidup ni dengan semangat awak tu ;)

and i wish that i can give you my shoulder for you to cry on

and my ears to hear all you sadness and share your happiness 

as a friend. semoga hidup yang ke 21 tahun bagi awak

banyak lagi kenangan manis dan kejayaan untuk awak! amin! 

Peeps!

Lama dah cheq tak update, cheq bukan paa.

cheq busy kerjaa,BP,kelaih lagi...cheq pon dah peninnn.

 hahaha ;D saja nak cakap uthagha(utara).pekat gilaaa!

Post ini bertujuan meningatkan semua semua orang yang ingat saya ni lemah sangat, mai sini nak habaq kat hampa.cheq tak macam dulu dah. cheq tak dak nangeh nangeh dah... bukan tak nangeh langsung.tapi...cheq tak dak lah macam dulu.nangeh memanjang.penoh sebaldi. saya dah tak ingat langsung pada Manusia yang tiada hati itu.hahaha. jangan terasa sapa baca yah! dalan sehari,sedetik,sesaat tiada lagi kamu dalam doaku.cewahhh!hahaha.ekin ekin. haihh. huhuhu.ye memang. saya tak ingat dah.saya dah buang masa lalu saya. sekarang saya nak pandang depan je.dengan adanya kawan kawan yang selalu bagi nasihat.memang tak de sapa nak percaya. setelah apa yang jadi.dah post saya yang cam orang tak betul dan tragedi yang menyusahkan banyak pihak juga hati yang terluka dan suara suara yang tersembunyi.semuanya dah diketahui.sekarang saya tau sapa kawan saya, saya tau sapa ikhlas dengan saya. saya dah lama tau, tapi as usual saya tak suka nak berindak melulu jika xtau dari mulut orang tu sendiri. dan orang orang pengecut yang cuba nak destroy my life, come a bit closer..and i`ll make sure u`ll regret every single thing that you had done. 

p/s:allah maha adil

dia buang kaca dan bagi permata.

setiap kejadian ada hikmah.

dan saya percaya DIA adalah hikmah bagi saya.

goodnight awak!sweet dream. ;)